Once again I havn't been here in quite a few months...well I have the internet now, so really there is no excuse.

Yes, well...the last bloke I was telling you about has been out of my life for quite a long time now, and this might sound really bad now but I have a new wonderful bloke, he really is ace, doesn't treat me like shit either.
His name is Andy met him in a pub, kinda strung it out for a while at the beginning because I wanted to be sure I wasn't going to get hurt again, but i definatley know for sure I won't be, he thinks the world of me, and I think the world of him.

College...well if you want me to be honest it really does feel like a really lonley place to me, yet i'm off because I'm ill and I hate it with a passion...stupid sinnuses...doing no good for me what so ever.

I've kinda come to the conclusion though I really have become really bored and lazy with college so I need to get my butt moving with the work before I get kicked off the courses which is one thing I definatley do not want to happen.
Once I finally get that sorted I will start to post my work on here, what i'm meant to be keeping up with, and get peoples opnions and critisisms.

I feel at the moment no matter how much I hated school, I kind of wished I payed attention more and then maybe I would of got onto the courses I anticipated I would through me just thinking I could, but well it back fired on me slightly.
Although art and photography are where my talents lye, I often think, in the future for a carreer am I going to get anyway you know?!
I keep being told why worry about the future now, when I've got the present to worry about?

Another thing that has been bothering me, recently I've been missing my friends from school, just the fact that they were my friends, there was always someones shoulder to cry on, there was always someone to have a laugh with, and there was always someone to share your interests and beliefs, but now at the moment I just feel really lost, and have no idea where I'm going.
The only thing I am completely sure about in this life is, where my priorities lye with my family, and my boyfriend.
But enough about that...

I am really bored of being ill and its driving me nuts...really it is...I'm the sort of person who wants the time off then when I get it I wish it was completley the opposite, so hard to please I am.

Christmas soon, havn't sorted out any presents yet...which really isn't a good idea...need to get a move on with the shopping me thinks.